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Hey all!

I’ve got good news! I passed all the courses this semester, despite the fact that I’m still infected with tuberculosis. Overall I got a B- on all my courses, which will bring my GPA up to 2.8.

I know I should be graduating right now, but since I switched my major, I still have have two more years to go. This just makes me wanna cry. This summer I’ll be hunting for jobs. Right now I’m not sure what to do. I’ve applied for a volunteer position at the zoo, but I blew the phone interview. Oh well, time to look for something else. Something that’s a little bit less stressful.

About my artworks, I’m planning on drawing it on the iPad. I haven’t tried it before, and I bet it’ll be quite a challenge. The app I bought only supports one layer with no undo (unless you trash the entire canvas), similar to traditional art IRL.

I won’t be going to China this summer. I have various check-ups to do during the summer.

Anyways, to end this journal, I’m going to include a famous quote from the movie Der Untergang.

Er ist nicht in der Bunkeranlage.

– Otto Gunsche

Exams are coming up this Friday. Who knows what will happen to my exams

Some of you were probably wondering where I went, since I was offline for a couple of days during the weekend. To tell you the truth, I was rushed to hospital because I was drunk myself into a coma. By the time I woke up, I was already in the hospital, not only that, I was actually sent to the psych ward, because of my previous history with alcohol abuse.

I don’t know how to feel right now. Every time I drink I promise to myself it’ll be the last drink, then I quit. I just feel stupid and sorry for myself. The doctor on my unit told me before I fully woke up, I was yelling at everyone about how I was going to kill myself, so I got restrained and thrown in isolation for a day. I guess alcohol makes you lose control over yourself. There really wasn’t anything to do at that point, so I eventually calmed down as the effects of alcohol faded, and the doctors let me out, on the terms of being followed up a week later to see if I need to be re-admitted to the hospital.

I’ve been thinking about whether should I really end my life. I have no control over my life, but instead being controlled by alcohol. But at the same time I also want to live on. I feel all twisted up inside, there’s lots of guilt and regret. I know I was being irresponsible, and a total disappointment to my family.

I just wish my life can go back to normal, back to the days where I had control over everything. But I chose this path, and I earned this punishment.

Skymin's Day!

Skymin!

That’s it I have write down for today. May the Lord have mercy on me.

Last Day of Winter Rants

April 13th, 2012 | Posted by 白百合 花子 in 白百合ちゃんの日記 - (Comments Off)

Life is meaningless. I should get drunk today. Again.

Ahem. By now I should probably admit that I have a drinking problem. Really. Now it has come to the point that I’ll drink anything that has alcohol in it. I can hardly focus on reviewing for the final exam. Now I’ll fail all my courses again, like last semester.

Actually my drinking problem began last year. By that time I wasn’t fully aware of the exact consequences. But at that point in time, I was already drinking excessively. I was drinking so I can turn my face away from reality.

Let me tell you a bit about myself. First of all, I don’t have any friends at all. Both online and in real life. For me, friends are only temporary, you have the same class for one semester, then you part ways. Second, I find it hard to trust people. Just because I ask for help, people laugh at my weakness. So I do everything alone. Third, my family ruined my life. I can’t get a boyfriend like everybody else, because the Saint’s Bloodline cannot be tainted by outsider’s blood, or whatever they say. So yeah, I have never experienced love and romance, so don’t expect me to give out any useful advice.

Right now I face the possibility of being expelled from my family and lose my title as a saint. But I don’t care. Honestly speaking, it’s just a name. I wold be happy to live my life as myself with no strings attached.

I don’t know what to say right now anymore. I’ve lost my inspiration, my schoolworks, and my liver functions. If tomorrow I die, then let it be that way. It would save everyone a lot of trouble.

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Update Completed

April 8th, 2012 | Posted by 白百合 花子 in 白百合ちゃんの日記 - (Comments Off)

I have added Movable Type to Kayapa Oekaki. Although it is a full CMS, I do not plan on writing another blog on it, so it will serve as the gateway page for now.

The server admins never actually announced that everything is fixed, but right now everything is fully working. So there might be additional downtimes in the next few days.

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Site Maintenance

April 5th, 2012 | Posted by 白百合 花子 in Site News (CAUTION: May contain nuts.) - (Comments Off)

Kayapa Forest is undergoing updates!
Unfortunately the web host decides to cut off connections now and then. so this leaves the site down 90% of the time.
I don’t know how long does it take for everything being fixed, because I see people are starting to leave this web host after a long period of protesting.
If the update goes well, then Kayapa Forest will have Movable Type installed again, so it’ll be a dual CMS engine. Theoretically it will work, as long as CGI is supported. It’s just nobody has tried it before.

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Well, Exams are coming up soon. I wasted another year doing absolutely nothing. This summer I won’t be able to afford another trip to China, so I guess I have to stay where I am.About my current health, it’s getting better. Certainly I need to lay off all the vodka, considering that the liver failure was not simple complications from my isoniazid treatment, but a combined effect of isoniazid and alcohol. With that in mind, I’ll be on my way to recovery.Now that I have converted to Chemistry, I have to give up all of my biology courses, I kinda regret this decision, knowing that there will be plenty of open positions within the biotechnology field.Anout my artwork, I’m suspending all production of art indefinitely. Ever since I got sick, I have lost all my inspiration. I don’t know how long until I get it back.

I figured I should include a Readers’ Comments section, just to review the feedback I’m getting. Anyways, here goes nothing…

To Kayla (iLoveYooh): The Begging Problem

As a rebuttal to your comment, I think my response to this problem is not to send any gifts to those beggars. I am aware that you might feel guilty for your so-called “lack of generosity”, but here’s the key issue: The more you “donate”, the more they’ll keep on begging. I don’t care what you exact motive is, but you’re feeding their bad habit.

Have you seen those signs out in the wild that tells you not to feed the birds? Well the story goes like this: You feed the birds during summer, the birds learn to take food from humans. When nobody comes out during winter, the birds will be unable to find food on their own, and starve to death.

What I must warn you here is that in some cases, those beggars can turn into sources of harassment when you decide not to give them free items anymore, either because they’re going too far, or because you can’t afford gifting them. It is best to avoid unnecessary “drama”.

To Amiuri-suchi: Problem of Over-Pricing

To answer you question, what I wanted to remind you is that trading is not just for getting the items you want, but it’s also done for profit. It’s just like investing in the stock market. Everything is about supply and demand. Since you cannot sell items back to get G-coins, the only way to consolidate your assets is to make some arbitrary items the “gold standard”, hence the most over-priced GC items. Suppose a GC face is bought at the price of 75 G-Coins, in order to get a profit, you must sell it at a price of beyond 75 G-coins equivalent of item(s). This is the key point in market trading. Whether some are outrageously overpriced or not, profit is what drives the whole trading force.

The caveat here is that sometimes this profit motive can tip unbalanced, in the seller’s favor if they get their hands on one of the “gold standard”, or high-demand items. But it can also work the other way. Having a “gold standard” item ensures a buyer any item of his/her wish, regardless of circumstances. This is what you must keep in mind when you encounter these trades.

That is all for today’s responses. Keep ‘em coming!

Back to School

January 9th, 2012 | Posted by Elsys St. Valencia in Life (and/or occassionally, death) - (Comments Off)

So, I’ve returned to my winter semester.

I’m going to change my major to chemistry, actually. Going any further with biology is just a waste of time. It’s about time I realized my true potential to become a chemistry student. Ever since I failed my biochemistry courses, I’ve been wondering whether if I’m the right candidate for biology.

Also, I didn’t mention here on this blog, but I’ve been really sick lately. I got tuberculosis last August. To keep myself entertained, I decided to join TinierMe for fun, because I was isolated in hospital. Then I realized there’s something missing in that community, so I wrote some articles just to prove a point. I don’t want anyone to think I’m just another mindless individual minding her own business,but then I realized that people tend not to read my articles either because they don’t understand, or their attention span is too short. Now I’ve stopped writing articles, because articles are pointless. Really pointless. I’ve talked with several friends (in real life), and they said I was over analyzing everything. Because I really assumed that everyone is mature and smart enough to deal with everything as sophisticated as possible, but I forgot that the majority of the TinierMe community is made from teenage girls. I used to be one in the past, but only with more freedom of thought and speech, and that’s why I over estimated everyone. It’s entirely my fault that all my articles failed to address the problems.

Well, that’s enough for now. I’ll be back within one week, and talk about how all my new courses are going.

До свидания!

Yet Again I Have Screwed Up

December 3rd, 2011 | Posted by 白百合 花子 in Life (and/or occassionally, death) - (Comments Off)

Well, well. Bad news.

Ecchi-chan failed to make it as the Organic Chemistry Department mascot. Guess what they voted for in the end? It was the Ether Bunny! My first reaction is that they probably didn’t want an odd-eyed wolf. Red and blue eyes probably weren’t very appealing to some. But I must admit whoever created the Ether Bunny was very creative.

I am starting to think my design of Ecchi was no good. But the thing is, Ether Bunny had an even simpler design! It’s just a rabbit with the structure of diethyl ether drawn on its ears. This is definitely unfair! I feel everyone is conspiring against me! What’s wrong with Ecchi-chan?

I must have done something wrong. There is no way Ecchi can lose to that retarded rabbit!

I bet Fegelein is behing this antic.

Bringen sie mir Fegelein!
FEGELEIN!
FEGELEIN!!
FEGELEIN!!!

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It has come to my attention that many people are excited about this reprint of Vocaloid items on TM. In order to fully answer all the comments that were sent to me, I have decided to write another article to address the impact this reprint has brought upon the trading market. This is certainly a very interesting and unique case worth studying.

First of all, I might have to explain what this monkey business is all about. The Vocaloid items are brought to you by Crapton Crypton Future Media, as a collaboration. What it essentially mean is that CFM licenses TM to use Vocaloid Persona, in return TM becomes an advertisement platform for CFM. Typical win-win situation. But then there was this earthquack earthquake in Japan which caused this event to end prematurely. That is, up to this Friday, when the reprints are issued.

So let us take a step back to before the reprints were issued and take a closer look at the market. Since the closure of Vocaloid Persona, the supply was shut off. Those who purchased the Vocaloid Items from the original gacha were divided into twomajor groups: Those are treating it as an investment (traders), and those who are collecting these items for the sake of their own enjoyment (collectors). Until now, all the Vocaloid items circulating on the trading market come from those traders, who bought these items as investment. The collectors, on the other hand, have to choice but to purchase them from the traders at an outrageously high price. Assuming that these items are conserved between all trades (i.e. no items were lost), the starting amount of items will gradually decrease, as the collectors are unlikely to resell them back to the market. Consequentially, the scarcity of Vocaloid Persona drives its market value higher and higher. This is the primary source of profit for Vocaloid traders. The longer you hold on to your Vocaloid items, the more valuable it will become.

However, the reprint of Vocaloid Persona items turned the whole market upside-down. The gacha was reopened, causing not only the source of supply to be reopened as well, but the overall scarcity to be drastically reduced. As the first law of a collectible market states: The value of any collectible item corresponds to its rarity, the Vocaloid items will be depriciated. Instead of having to find the limited amount of these items on the market and overpaying for them, the reprint offers a much cheaper alternative for collectors. The traders, however, suffered great losses as the value of their old Vocaloid items drops greatly. One might think people are excited about the reprint, as the evidence in trade rooms point out that the trade for Vocaloid items are more frequent than ever. In reality, what really is going on is that the previous traders who were holding on to their Vocaloid items as investment are trying to sell them as fast as possible, before all is lost. The few of these traders who did not get their items through the original gachas, but through buying it at a relatively high price from another traders, were the ones who were hit the hardest. They paid a very high offer for their items, only to find out that the reprint has reduced the price of their items down to nothing. As this selling frenzy continue, the original Vocaloid items will depreciate quickly, as the collectors will not buy anything from the traders anymore but to resort to the reprints. the traders will likely to lose faith too, and underprice their items in a desperate attempt to sell them.

The more they sell, the less valuable their items will become. However, since the market can never be truly saturated, the bottom of how low the value can end up will be somewhere above 75 G-coins, the original price tag that comes with the gacha. In comparison to real life investment, the fate of Vocaloid Persona will be somewhat similar. In the end, the traders lose, because their investments are reduced to dirt. The collectors also lose in this case, as they overpaid for the original Vocaloid, only to find out that they can simply buy a reprint at 75 G-coins.

Who exactly is responsible for this disaster? I think we all know the answer. The TM “government”. While they jump on every cash-earning opportunity like a starved squirrel on the last peanut on Earth, the users were the ones ultimately being taken advantage of.

P.S.

I have talked to one of my professors (Dr. Svetlana Petrovsky) who is also highly knowledgable on this kind of market, and she mentioned some of the mistakes I have made in writing this article. First, I assumed every single TM player is an expert trader from Wall Street, complete with their market analysts. Which obviously isn’t the case. When we plot the demograhics on TM, most of them are impulsive teenager girls who knows nothing about market economy. Second, the other assumption I have made is that everyone had unhindered access to G-coins, that is, if they have money, they can buy it freely. Third, I assumed the traders and the collectors were two completely seperate groups with zero overlap in between. In reality, these two groups will have some overlap, as some collectors might decide to sell their Vocaloid items should they lose interest, and some traders might keep their items for dressing up.

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